Talk about a FREAKY DEAKY DEAL!

So last week I had some restless nights. I dreamed some pretty awesome dreams but there was one that DEEPLY disturbed me.

Thursday night I was having my usual sleeping issues, finally went to sleep and dreamed of one of my dearest friends. She's going through a rough patch--starting her life over while going througha divorce. I dreamed of her. Her and a strange new man in her life. In the dream we were sitting in her house and this man came in. She introduced us and I HATED him on the spot! He made my flesh crawl, he made my stomach ache and basically I just couldn't tolerate being in the same room with him.

I begged her to listen to me--that there was something not right about this man, there was something she couldnt trust and I pleaded with her to leave him. She grew angry that I was interferring in her life and she asked me to leave. In the dream i was phoned to let me know she had died. She had been murdered--violently and bloodily--by this man.

When we were at her place Friday night I'd been sullen and silent, unsure how to speak or what to say. Finally I bit the bullet and I told her about the dream. She was slightly tense because she knows my dreams usually mean something...when I've dreamed of people dying they have passed on.

She showed me a photograph and asked me if it was the same man. I said no. I described the man to her. She got real funny. Seems as if she had gone out with a man who fit the exact descrioption of Nightmare Nathan to a T. She had gone out with him THAT THURSDAY NIGHT!

I got all goosefleshed and slightly freaked out. I told her that just because I dreamed this DIDNT mean anything. But that if she could just BE CAREFUL then it would be all right. She assured me she'd be careful and had no intention of ever seeing the man again.

We all know dreams are subjective. If all mine came true...well, lets just say that my money worries would be over, all the normal married people issues would NEVER arise and I'd be too exhausted to sit and write 90% of my life--hehehehe! It could be that the stress of my life colored my dream. It could also be as simple as I was dreaming that her divorce wouldn't be a simple and smooth meeting but end up being a heated, decidedly unpleasant battle.

Death doesnt always mean a physical thing--it can equate change. The end of her old life and the beginning of a new.

However, knowing that she went out with the man who matched the one iIN MY DREAM the NIGHT OF THE DREAM is still QUITE unsettling...

Well off to work! HAPPY READING!
JJ

Sadness

As some of you know I have a cousin who has been battling Leukemia. Tonya was diagnosed in June of this year. It's with a heavy heart I share this news with you: She has lost her battle with this horrible disease.

Tonya passed from our life on Thursday October 9th at 9 pm. Our visitation services were today and she will be laid to rest tomorrow, Monday October 13th.

Tonya was an amazing person. She had such a bright spirit and positive outlook on life. I've never seen her upset or angry. Even after she became ill she was so upbeat. The illness took her vision shortly after her diagnosis but living in the darkness didn't get her down. I remember she made jokes about how she wouldn't have to clean house any more--she couldn't see the dirt so it wouldn't matter.

She had the most adorable lopsided smile and you couldn't help but share it. Tonya was also the epitome of the blond cliche--slightly ditzy, always adorable. When someone did something goofy it was said they "pulled a Tonya."

Her pain is over and while we're all gratedul for the releif her loss is great and her memory will never dim.

All the kind words I've received and the prayers that have been shared with me and my fmaily are most heartily appreciated. Thank you all for your caring, generosity.

It may be a bit of time before I'm back and updating my news. Your patience is appreciated!
Hugz
JJ